It's all messy: the hair, the bed, the words, the heart. Life.

Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

What I Feared Losing

“If you want to learn what someone fears losing, watch what they photograph.” 

Unknown

Looking over the photos I took this past month, I realized the only thing I really captured were the changing trees. I guess that’s what I fear of losing the most, the beauty of autumn. Having all the beauty crumble beneath my feet and then get hidden beneath the snow. So I took photos. Lots and lots of photos of the leaves and the vibrant tress. Sometimes I collected the leaves I found too. I probably looked like an idiot to some people... bending down to pick up leaves when I took walks. I don’t really care though. I now have this collection of pressed leaves and photos to remind me of the fall when all the colorfulness is gone. And I’m good with that. 

All photos are taken by me with my Cannon 35mm film camera

Three Quotes

I am not an easy person to love. Some days I will whisper how beautiful you are while planting gentle kisses all over your body. You will giggle and try to fight me off and in that moment my heart will have never felt so light.
But other days when my mind is a storm cloud threatening to explode, I will be a bundle of emotions that I cannot quite keep contained. I will be cold, distant, and you will look at me like I am not the same person you fell in love with.
I am a broken light switch. My moods flicker without anyone flipping me on and off. I wake up each morning and wonder which me you will encounter that day. I always hope it is the one who makes you want to stick around.
I am not easy to love. But what I need you to understand is that whether there is a war waging inside of my mind or I am the kind person that you adore, I will always love you.
I will love you in the morning. I will love you when you cry. I will love you when I am angry. I will love you when you’re being stubborn. I will love you when I don’t even love myself. I will love you.
I know that there will be days when you want to give up on me but I am asking you, please don’t. You see, you are the only one who has been able to settle the storm inside of me before I even realize it is surfacing.
I am not easy to love but I promise that I will always put up a fight. And I will love you no matter which me my light switch flips on that day.

- (via yesdarlingido)

If each man or woman could understand that every other human life is as full of sorrows, or joys, or base temptations, of heartaches and of remorse as his own … how much kinder, how much gentler he would be.

- William Allen White 

Faith is the art of holding onto things in spite of your changing moods and circumstances.

- C.S. Lewis

Light

When the light reaches the crest of a hill, it shines it's radiant beauty more than any other time of the day. 

~Messy~